nothing lasts forever

"Nothing lasts forever" is so true.

I always foolishly believed that my friendship with Ima is one of the kind, the one which will survive through thick and skin. 13 years of friendship and now that she's ready to embark new phase of life, marriage life, I realised.. I'm starting to lose a grip on her :(

Marriage.. what is it you have against me!? why does it seem that you're taking away my bestfriends!?? I barely digest the fact how distant I am right now with the others after their marriages, yet, you're trying to snatch what I have with Ima??? Please don't do it, she's my other half, she's the sister that I'm dying to have.

Sometimes.. Islam with its so-called rules is irritating. Well, maybe it's due to my lack of knowledge of a true Moslem. It surprised me that once you're married, everything you do needs an approval from your husband, even when you want to have your 'me-time' at the salon ! Going out without your husband's permission is considered as a huge sin. *heavy sigh*

According to my aunt, that might be the reason of the growing distance between me and my married bestfriends.

"But who are you to complaint, Nis? A bestfriend doesn't demand, she understands. She gives advices, not an order"


One simple statement which enough to bring me back to the ground. 'Nuff said.

inconvenient truth

"People change. They end up have nothing to say to each other, even they're best friends the year before"

Quoted from a movie called Tape.

 I've been knocking on your door lately, my dearest friend. But they're all went unanswered. I tried to reach out to you yet you didn't respond. As much as I wanted to hate you, cut you out of my life, I'm still hoping you'd come around.

After 11 years of friendship, I honestly never thought we would come this far. My one and only question is what did I do so wrong to be treated this way?

Then I came across to the above quote,that's when I realised that it was you who have changed. Perhaps you do no longer value this friendship, the way you used to be. I don't blame you for that though because I know you have other priorities in life. 

So I decided to leave you alone, take care.