already gone

That long awaited peace has finally came few weeks ago. Out of sudden, there's no more pain, not even a sting. Not only that, I managed to encourage him to have more faith and confidence in his long distance relationship with his current girlfriend (or future wife, like the way he refers her). 

Now, I can look back and laugh at the memories. It got me wonder though, how could I fall for that immature, heartless, overly-dramatic jerk? Oh well, who could blame the feeling? He wasn't that bad, so far that was the best relationship I had (3 months of great start, 6 months later were crap :p). 

It really took lots of efforts, time (7 freaking wasted months) and 2 failed relationships (possibly rebound-purpose only) to get here. So it feels amazingly awesome !! 

Well done Nis, shall we buy IPhone 4 and Onyx as a reward!? :)  

life is wonderful

Alhamdulillah I feel so blessed... I don't know what did I do to be deserved such enormous blessings from You, but I really am so thankful Ya Allah. Kindly guide me to stay humble, to always keep my feet on the ground, to keep stay just the way I already am. Let me be a better Moslem who knows how to be grateful and to look after those blessings in my best manner.

What I have right now, they're all come from You, things which You could always take from me at any given time. I don't want to let myself grow addicted to this comfortable life, won't let those luxuries get the best of me. What's the use of having that kind of life if it turns me blind !?

I'm feeling so inspired lately, my nights and days are filled with new dreams, goals and ambitions. So, here I go again, Masya Allah.. thank You very much Ya Allah...

better in time

My last night in Manchester. Yes, I've been spending these past two weeks in England. I was here for a familiarisation trip from one of the institutions in here, then decided to do a little bit of sightseeing for the second week. It's a rare chance, so I gotta make the most out of it :)

This trip is like a dream that finally come true. For those who know me really well, are very aware that I have a very huge obsession with the country. I dream to study here, well. it almost happened, but I was blinded by love back then, didn't have the courage to leave my ex boyfriend behind. No regret though because I was pretty resolute with my decision. I could tell how disappointed my father was, yet he could not force me to go.

On the bright side, I kinda feel far more satisfied and have this feeling of privilege when I told people that I came to UK for business reason :) *LOL

Anyway, I'm having an incredibly great time in here and feeling terribly reluctant to leave but I can't ditch my business for selfish reason, can I? Gosh.. I'm freaking out just by imagining the workloads which need to be done once I'm home (T_T) Gotta welcoming back my 12 hours a day and 7 days a week routine.

Come on Nis, your so called self-funded Omra plan is waiting !! Give me YOUR blessing Ya Allah... I really want to go to Mecca and Madinah again, it has to be this year (and more to come in the near future).

Almost half-way through 2011, it was quite a downturn journey in the beginning but I'm very proud to reach state that I'm currently in right now. Alhamdulillah, I've never been this content with my life. Though there is a sting whenever I recall how I don't have someone special to share every huge step I managed to make, but hey... I trust that my guy is on his way to find me.