a random thought on love

love is defined in many different ways, it comes in different forms.
the love to God, between parents and their kids, between siblings, between a bunch of very good friends, between lovers, etc.

love is one endless -and sometimes tiresome- journey to be better for each other.

the nature of love, regardless its form, is indeed not selfish. it's about giving wholeheartedly with no expectation in return. love gives you power and strength to do whatever we could to put a smile on our loved one's face. even if that effort costs our own heart.

however, to me, there is no such thing as sacrificing your own  happiness for someone else sake. because in the end, the one whom you are protecting from pain is yourself.

in love, we only have two options, to conquer everything together or to carry the 'losers' tag together.

and here i am, 32 days to my 25th birthday. definitely not a loser, i just have not found my luck in romance yet :)

all we'd ever need

A very motivational conversation with Cassy the other day:

"I think no matter what, even in the future we will still look back and think about our previous relationship. It's not about wanting to get back together though, that's what everyone always thinks when we hit one of those sad moments. I guess everytime we enter a new relationship, we are vulnerable to someone and it's like that person takes a chunk of our heart. It's normal I guess, to feel hung up. Keep walking forward, look forward and let the past just be the past. There's a reason why things didn't work out - sometimes we have to remind ourselves of those reasons. And then learn from our mistakes and move on to better stuff! It always gets better; it has to."

Thank you beb, you always know to put me at ease. You're right, things are getting better at my end :)

what's with all the hype?

It's true that Obama once lived in Indonesia and his mother was married to Indonesian man. But fellows, do we really have make a big deal out of it?

I'm indeed one of Obama's huge fans and I couldn't help but to feel excited upon knowing such incredible man had spent some part of his childhood years in the same country as mine. Oh well, who wouldn't be?

However, lately I'm starting to get tired with all of the fuss that my fellows made. Come on, ever since he made his breakthrough into USA political world, we've never stopped talk about him. Weeks of press coverage after his then-canceled trip and his 'sate' line in his 18mins interview with my dear Putra Nababan, built him a statue,and now 'Win 3 golden tickets to meet Obama' !? Wew, too much...


But I still adore you mister :) Though I'm kind of disappointed because you didn't do anything with recent attacks by Israel.

bankruptcy alert!

I'll be declaring bankruptcy next month. I spent SO MUCH money and have been using my cards this month, now my head is spinning thinking about the bills which will due in mid March.

Did I regret it?
Honestly I didn't =) I love all the stuffs I bought, I have been eyeing them for quite sometime and I just can't hold back the desire to buy them. What's the point of working hard if I can't really enjoy the outcome? *cough, excuses*

Anyway, let's welcome my closet newcomers:

Longchamp Le Pliage Eiffel Cabas - Paper

Samsung STAR

(Paid in 12 months' installment)

This gorgeous baby will arrive late March, can't wait to take her around with me!

Longchamp Planetes - Grey

Now, I need to buy a whole stack of instant noodles or any kind of instant food. No more eating at restaurant and obviously, no more shopping. Ouch... it hurts =D

it's all about timing

Is there such thing as 'the one'?
Is there really only one person you can be happy with?
Just because two people are interested in each other.. does it mean that they will end up together?

Some thought that occurred to me early this morning; I realized that love is not about me wanting him, or him wanting me.

Now more than ever, I’m convinced that “love” is a matter of timing. We can meet the right person anytime soon, however, if its the wrong time or the wrong place, nothing will happen. Like everything has its own time to become something, love needs the 'right timing' to be made.

childhood memories

I envy those who could actually remember how happy his/her childhood was. So, at the end of the day, these people would have heaps of interesting stories to be passed onto their children, or grand children, etc.

"When I was little..." has always been my favorite sentence. Whenever I hear anyone say that one sentence, I’ll put my hair behind my ears and listen attentively even though, maybe, it’s the same story for the one-hundredth time.

My parents are very good storytellers, with tons of hillarious stories to share. Mom with her trouble maker attitudes, yes.. in her big family, she was widely known for her afternoon 'physical training' with the boys. Everyone kept on telling me how wild she was. Not only that, she loved to play tricks with her teachers. I couldn't imagine how on earth would one be able to ring the school's bell (before class ended) or to make use of his teachers' love letters in exchange for her tardiness. Thankfully, she still managed to score well in her studies.

My dad stories was rather inspiring, he hard a life. My grandfather was a soldier with 8 kids. To ease his dad's financial burden, my dad chose to live with his aunts and tried to earn money on his own at a very young age. In one day, you would find him selling kerosene from one village to another, if he didn't earn any money, he then went to the rice field, helped the owner to plant or to harvest. He wouldn't go back until he have some money to be given for his aunts and his siblings. What makes me amaze is that such situation didn't prevent him to quit his school. Instead, he used it as a motivation to strive the best. He didn't care what others say about his broken shoes or his torn clothes, because what matter to him is his family.

Reflecting on their experiences, I wonder what sort of things should I tell to my children. I had very vague memories of my childhood, especially after my parents' divorce. It seemed like, I had block a certain period of my life unconsciously. All I could recall are I was a bit of tomboy (got into fight ocassionally), I didn't have many close friends (they mocked my parents' divorce behind my back), I wasn't a bright student (I was so... dumb!!), I hated arts lesson the most, I couldn't sleep by myself until the age of 12. What else?
OK, this is funny.. I always have a crush on my teacher!! HAHAHA....

Pheww...
Now, my heart is filled with jealousy towards my parents, but in a good way. I wish to have a lot more to say about my childhood. Some story which could make my children feel the same way as I do with my parents. Gosh, I better find a way which could bring my memories back =)

Smallville without Lex Luthor

I'm a huge fan of Smallville series. I have never missed one single episode of the series. The show might have some weaknesses, however, it never failed to satisfy me. I love Smallville to bits and pieces!!

Unlike others, my favorite character in the show has always been Lex Luthor (played by Michael Rosenbaum). I couldn't figure out anyone better than him to potray such complex character. His amazing portrayal of Lex Luthor has been a joy to watch from the first season. Yes... he is that good, because in reality he has wildly different personalities. While Lex is a more serious character, Michael is indeed a playful one. Those who have seen him off-air or his Smallville bloopers would definitely board on the same boat with me =)

Anyway, I heard that he will no longer appear as a regular in the show! I haven't seen the rest of the season 7 episodes yet, hence I have no idea how sucks the season finale was. But really... to have Smallville without either "Lex Luthor" or Michael Rosenbaum, what are they giving us!?? Are they freakin kidding me!?

Well...
Thank you, Michael, for making Smallville one of the reasons to keep watching, and for making me fall in love with your rendition. Only you could've provided that, smart-alecky, yet sweet character.

Best of luck in your future endeavors. I'll be looking out for your works.

Love for Kang Ji Hwan

I'm back to the office ! I took a day off from work yesterday. I was terribly sick, I got this massive headache along with mild fever. If only I had enough strength, I'd rather chose to be in the office. Despite the fact where I was able to finish reading Kite Runner and watching Homicide Investigation Team on the same day, I didn't thoroughly enjoyed my off.

Well, excuse my random mumbling =)

Do any of you agree with me that this guy is cute?
credit tosoompi

His name is Kang Ji Hwan, recognised as another Korean rising actor (I applaud those who can actually remember the exact number of actors in Korea). Anyway, KJH is currently staring in Hong Gil Dong. I've read tons of positive reviews about this fusion-saeguk drama, that's why I look forward to watch this. For HGD episode recap, go to Dramabeans

Back to my KJH, you should watch him in Capital Scandal. He's awesome there and girls, we get to see his sexy bu*t. When I said sexy, it's for real ! Have you seen Brad Pitt's in TROY? Well, regardless the naked-scene, KJH's bu*t is as FINE as Pitt's. *lol* This bu*t thingy reminds me with the song which sang by Rachel and Ross for Emma to make her laugh [Remember Friends the series]. Ok... my imagination gets wilder.

Capital Scandal is a very good drama where everything is perfectly executed to the audience. The plot, the casts, the acting, the soundtrack, the dialogue, even the wardrobe are brilliant. IF you are interested, you could take a peek on the review here