a life to live and enjoy

4.9.08

I know I'm strong, BUT even superman has the right to bleed.. so do I

I may be not the world's greatest daughter. BUT at least I never stop trying to make up for my slackings.

It is real hard to be your daughter, my dear parents..
You (almost) have no tolerance to mistakes and failures.

I've been spending my ENTIRE life living in fear for my own inadequacies, chasing an elusive definition of 'enough'. Am I good enough as a daughter? Have I done enough for my parents, given them enough service? Were they pleased enough with my efforts?

Up until today, I keep trying to find these answers in how my actions and decisions are evaluated by them. Finally, with thread and through 'stitches', I realise that I would never be able to satisfy my parents' ego..

To some extent, I believe they actually understand their children's misery. However, their own ego and pride have beaten up their sanity really badly =)

While my sanity is still intact, I will start looking inward, exploring myself, searching for personal and spiritual truths. Because the ultimate truth is that 'enough' is always with me so long as I keep chasing it.

I'm sorry parents BUT I also have a life to live and enjoy!