a little gift from the past

Harusnya aku tahu,
aku menuai kesia-siaan..
Semestinya tak perlu mempertanyakan lagi.

Saat berjarak.. terasa begitu lekat,
dan ketika di depan mata..
terasa begitu jauh.

Terima kasih.. ada yang tersisa untukmu,
ada yang menggores disini.
Perih.. sepertinya bukan hatiku.
Hanya ego....

Simpan saja untuk cerita kita nanti,
misalnya kita bisa bercerita lagi.

Credit to: Anonymous
Some guy from my past told me this poem, it kinda represented our tragic yet beautiful story.. For those who shared the kind of love we used to have, you'd feel a pain in your heart when you read it wholeheartedly.

a whole new world

I got a Letter of Offer from QUT few days ago, they granted me with half year of an advanced standing, This allows me to complete my Master of Business degree in 2 semester (i.e. 8 months approx.).

I have to admit that it's really a good deal and it did wave my commitment to my job. However, after a 6 months break from university life, this obviously not an easy thing to do. Not only that I have to be patient with the university workloads, but also the fact that I have to hold back my desire to be a career woman !! Daymn.. Life is surely full of surprises.. just when I thought that I'd be a normal salary woman, here it comes another great opportunity... Thank you God, regardless of my 'not a good Moslem' attitude, You still bless me with lots of love and joy.


Recently, due to my newly found activity, I had to 'disappear' for a while from blogging.. My new routine really took most of my energy, both mentally and physically. From Monday to Saturday, I have to wake up at 6am then get myself presentable for work. I usually leave at 8 because the office hours start at 9am to 5pm (though I mostly stayed back untill 6pm). There are lots of things need to be learned, but I'm enjoying it...

New environment, new responsibility... thus making me feel great !! Sadly, this enjoyment wouldn't last long =) I already signed the offer acceptance form. I'll just need to wait for QUT's confirmation of enrollment (CoE) so that I could immediately apply for the Australian visa. Yippyyy.......

-There's always a 'cost' that we have to sacrifice in order to achieve the best we can do. One thing to be noted is how to minimise that 'cost'-

it isn't love

Tak seharusnya kuiyakan,
Tak seharusnya kusanggupi,
Tak seharusnya kujalani,
Tak seharusnya kusakiti,
Tapi..sudah seharusnya ku berkata jujur.

Maafkan, tapi.. ini bukanlah cinta.

how to be fair

Dan ternyata, bersikap adil itu sangatlah susah. Adil di mata kita, belum tentu adil di mata orang lain.

Ga peduli seberapa inginnya gw ingin bersikap adil, in the end, i've always ended up hurting people around me. Dan ironisnya, gw juga ga luput menjadi korban dari sikap 'adil' gw itu. Ga cukup hanya itu, tak jarang... orang" malah menyalahkan and memojokkan gw, karena bagi mereka, keadilan versi gw itu hanyalah kamuflase dari keegoisan gw !

Kedengaran seperti sedang menangisi diri sendiri-kah gw !? well, jujur sih ngga.. g ada gunanya juga. Toh, sudah menjadi hak asasi orang" tersebut untuk nge-judge gw. Either it's a good or bad perception, i don't find that bothering me. I'm enjoying my life, any criticism.. i'd take that as a compliment. 'Coz things that matter to me is the happiness of my beloved family and friends.

Dad and Mom.. please live long enough so that there'd be enough time for me to prove that I love you both equally. Amiin !! Btw, isn't thing would get better if the two of you stop jealousing each other !? This endless dispute really puts me at the most-disadvantage position ever.

ps: I made the right decision when breaking up with you. I finally got to see your other face. Thanks to you, I got no regret and guilty at all. Really, what an immature brat you are.....

dan Indonesia pun memilih

Congratulations MIKE, for being chosen as the Indonesian delegation to compete in Asian Idol. You deserve the praises !!
Wishing you tons of luck in the next stage... You may not possess the look but you surely have a great and beautiful voice.

I was really glad for the Indo Idol result show lat nite. At lease my fellow have come to their senses.`No offense.. but I hate Delon, not only due to his not-handsome-at all look but also due to his -fans' overrated- singing skill !! I was kept on swearing everytime the camera took a close look on him. Yes.. Yes.. I hate him that much :)

Anyway, why the hell they're calling it Asian Idol, while there are only 6 Asian countries competing for the title !?? What a "brilliant" sample to represent the largest continent on the earth... Wait, perhaps not all Asian countries have this Idol wanna-be event. Oh.. whatever. I bet RCTI would earn lots of cash, thanks to the generous sponsors and -easily satisfied- audiences.

The Indonesian TV programmee are all stupid and full of shit, excluding news and music events. Humm.. I miss my -online streaming Korean and Japanese Dramas- routine..