a life to live and enjoy

I know I'm strong, BUT even superman has the right to bleed.. so do I

I may be not the world's greatest daughter. BUT at least I never stop trying to make up for my slackings.

It is real hard to be your daughter, my dear parents..
You (almost) have no tolerance to mistakes and failures.

I've been spending my ENTIRE life living in fear for my own inadequacies, chasing an elusive definition of 'enough'. Am I good enough as a daughter? Have I done enough for my parents, given them enough service? Were they pleased enough with my efforts?

Up until today, I keep trying to find these answers in how my actions and decisions are evaluated by them. Finally, with thread and through 'stitches', I realise that I would never be able to satisfy my parents' ego..

To some extent, I believe they actually understand their children's misery. However, their own ego and pride have beaten up their sanity really badly =)

While my sanity is still intact, I will start looking inward, exploring myself, searching for personal and spiritual truths. Because the ultimate truth is that 'enough' is always with me so long as I keep chasing it.

I'm sorry parents BUT I also have a life to live and enjoy!

Things Change (And Apparently So Do People)

What’s up with the sudden change?

What did I do so wrong which made me deserve to be treated this way by you?
It never occurred that you’re capable of doing such horrible deeds to anyone.

Really, I wish you could’ve picked a nicer way to abandon everything.
You don’t have to leave that abruptly and I don’t have to feel hurt with those cold treatments of you.

Regardless the unjustifiable pain, I do still care about you well-being.

In this life, you are expected to bump into countless hardships. Losing the ones whom you care dearly is one of the many trials which one should be able to go through. No matter how your heart aching with their departure…sometimes, you simply have no ultimate power to alter something that is meant to be happened.

When it happens, you just have to let go the whole thing, that way…you can carry on your life and live it to the fullest.

So, from this day forward, I’ll throw away these bad memories for good and only spare the good ones in store.